How, Indeed...

How am I ever gonna be me
How am I ever gonna be me, Lord
How am I ever gonna be me

When I'm not who I'm supposed to be
A mother's son, a father's boy
A brother's friend, a sister's joy
An uncle cool, a cousin true
And who knows a father too
A shy recluse who once shot in
A patriot, a citizen
How was I born a mystery
How am I ever gonna be me

How am I ever gonna do right
How am I ever gonna do right, Lord
How am I ever gonna do right and do what's good within your sight
Sometimes my best is good enough
Sometimes I bluff that I am tough
I've turned my cheek instead of fight
And made them wrong when they were right
If you help those who help themselves how comes the meek don't fare so well
And I have prayed with all my might
How am I ever gonna do right

How am I ever gonna be saved
How am I ever gonna be saved, Lord
How am I ever gonna be saved when I have lived a life depraved
I've worshiped money, murdered Cain
Used your names sometimes in vain
Worked on Sundays, rocked and rolled
Want it bad enough I stole
She came to me what was next door
It's not like we had met before
Oh tell me what else can I say
How am I ever gonna be saved

How am I ever gonna find peace
How am I ever gonna find peace, Lord
How am I ever gonna find peace
Will it be on a golden street with big parades and pretty girls
Cotton candy colored swirls
Waving fields of Springtime sun that war's been never waged upon
My lover's arms my first release
How am I ever gonna find peace

Scot Miller - How Am I Ever Gonna Be Me